So I'm home and its o.k. I suppose. Don't really want to be here though. I cried when I got home and mark got really mad he thinks I don't want to be here anymore, he doesn't trust me anymore either well he probably shouldn't either. I think I want to leave everything.

I miss my friends in Rome, I miss Rome, I miss speaking italian, I miss so much.

I miss feeling secure in my life, I miss feeling happy with my relationship but I don't know how to get it back.