meh I am feeling down, apparently my sister didn;t get any uni offers she finished school a few years ago and applied for a special consideration place because she had depression for three years during school but she still didn't get through, it is so depressing she would so value a place at uni, she is so smart and stuck working in hopeless boring jobs and when I think of the stupid people fucking around at uni. Anyways now she is apprently really depressed again and I feel, not just feel am, so far away and just feel helpless she is my little sister and I just want to make everything good for her.

Also apparently my brother has had kidney stones or something and I didn;t know anything about this, he had had an operation and everything, i don't even know what they are really. God I really want to be at home at the moment

I was a bit down last night, still feeling a bit meh today, and overwhelmed, I am going away tomorrow, so I might not be online for a week, please don't cry Anyways I have all this stuff to do, and apparently it is going to be something like 1 degrees further north in Tuscany brrrr. I'm not sure if my overcoat is warm enough as the lining is kinda torn and falling out so I was thinking of buying a new jacket but I don't know where to go or what I want, sigh, else I could just buy some thermals to put underneath. God I haven't got the energy for this stuff today.

I had wanted to go out to look at a photo archive but I don't know now, its only open between3-5pm which just seems awkward and it will take me 2 hours to get home and it is freezing. Sigh.