Went out for drinks with Kate and Juliet which was great, suddenly felt relaxed and even ate something without feeling ill, had a nice chat, it was such a darling bar and the waiter was so amused at us practising our Italian words.

Now I am back I can feel the tension returning but I am trying to stop it, i am listening to music and it is both helping and not helping.

I feel as though my whole heart and mind are changing